Tick, Tock, the clock never stops. Time is precious – Moments of the Sacred.

Moments of the sacred sign

Do I look forward to the time I have? This is an expression at times I say when I have arranged a time to meet with someone. “I look forward to seeing you” Anticipating the meeting, talking, listening, being with the person! We do have to look forward, excited about,  having a vision, or focus, or goal to achieve, to a certain degree. The past is past, the future has not come, and we don’t know what tomorrow will bring. The present time, this moment, is what we have, the now, is what we have to work with.

Do I enjoy the moments of time I have been given? Do I look forward with anticipation, with excitement, the time was given, the time we make, as a gift? We found the time, as if it got lost, we have to wait a long time, for that cherished moment and savor the time with a friend. Having arranged a tryst, to have that quality time, not driven, or task orientated, not just another chore to be done on time.

Time is Time, not time is money! We have to place value on our time, and not get irritated, when the time feels wasted, due to the fact, we had an alternative motive. My needs not being met! Those times that we feel rushed, or running out of time, may make you feel like a drill sergeant, shouting your commands. We start pushing your demands, feeling pressured and stressed, feeling that there is not enough time, to have time, rest, recreation. Where you are the busiest, this is probably a good place to begin the needed change. Pausing, asking, pondering, how can I enjoy this moment of time, as a gift that it is. I have been given time, be careful not to get too driven, organizing, get everyone ready, fixing mode. When we are in this frame of mind, the time is no longer a gift, but a commodity to be used and abused.

Where are you the busiest? This is probably a good place to begin the needed change. Pausing, asking, pondering, how can I enjoy this moment of time, as a gift, recognizing time as just this as a precious gift. I have been given time, be careful not to get too driven, organizing everyone, demanding everyone to get ready, being in the fix it mode. When we are in this frame of mind, the time is no longer a gift, but a commodity to be used and abused.


The Anam Cara Book cover

A small extract from my book that I’m working on, it is still a work in process.

“Had you asked me a year ago, I never would have thought that I’d be perfectly happy sitting in a room with an old man, listening to a clock tick on the mantle, and hearing the weather change, as the wind howled. I looked up from the book in my hands when a branch scraped the window.” pg 11.

Time, what a luxury! Time to sit and read a book, not too busy, what a luxury you may think. Possibly feeling like you have no time for yourself, being mostly in a rush. Like the rabbit in Alice in wonderland, “I’m late, I’m late for a very important date.” Not having enough time. Time stops for no man, this little phrase feels so true, not enough time in a day to get everything accomplished. We try to manage out time, and question where did the time go. We are being busy at nothing, or spending our time in pleasurable activities, in recreational activities, spending time with family around the dinner table. The time you have been given is a precious commodity, we are given moments of time, to appreciate as a gift to be used wisely. Do we give ourselves the time to re – create, allow the time to re- generate,  and re-new our lives, do we give time to the things we love?

There could be a danger, not making time for new things, stuck in the ordinary status quo of life. We make time for what we want to do, and we only do what we want to do. We make time for the things we like and love to do! Do I only do what is right in my own eyes? Not using the time I have been given wisely, we all have seven days a week and 24hrs to work with, granted we do sleep some of those hours. How to use time wisely?

“The time spent in discovering and refining our craft is not a waste of time. It is called creos time. Like kairos time creos is time of a spiritual nature, a time of probing, of discovering the nature of our gifts, of testing the potential and scope of their application, of considering the ramifications of the long haul. Creos is a time of peaks and valleys, of undulating movement that we must learn to read, just as we read the hands of a clock in Chrono’s time, creos has a different rhythm that is measured by heartbeats and soul beats that tick at their own rubato pace – sometimes fast, sometimes slow, often in unmetered rhythms until we are aesthetically and spiritually satisfied. Ignorance of creos time is injurious to our spirits.” Pg 35 Seeing in the dark: A vision of creativity and Spirituality – Beverly J. Shamana.

Redeem the time, Ephesians 5: 16. – Berean Literal Bible

15 Therefore carefully take heed how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, 16 redeeming the time because the days are evil. 17 Because of this, do not be foolish, but understand what is the Lord’s will, 18 and not to be drunk with wine in which is debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit,19 speaking to each other in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord, 20 giving thanks at all times for all things in the name our Lord Jesus Christ to the God and Father.


We have to be careful that we do not treat people as if they are not worthy of giving attention, some people view people as not valuable enough to give a moment of their time. Time is a gift to be shared.

A friend who did this for me personally, I will feature at my new website.  Motivation and Inspiration, the person I’m featuring is my friend Curtis Kneblik. He has shown love, by giving of his time, by listening and being available. This can be a sacrifice, but God does want our time to be spent in some worthwhile endeavor. Let us redeem the time, making the most our appointed time, by buying back the wasted years. We are stewards of our time, let us give of our time generously, wisely, cautiously, discerningly,  and in a way that is honoring to God.

Colossians 4:5-6The Message (MSG)

5-6 Use your heads as you live and work among outsiders. Don’t miss a trick. Make the most of every opportunity. Be gracious in your speech. The goal is to bring out the best in others in a conversation, not put them down, not cut them out.


Experience sign




The letter D begins many a word for direction!


I have many friends who I’m praying for at present, their dreams have become disappointments, debts have become dread. Their longings have pressed them into a corner, feeling trapped with nowhere to turn, with doubt and despair as their companions, at times even longing for death. They are disillusioned with a life that feels full of dead ends.

The discoverer in some of my friends has dried up, having lost the dream, steps once taken in faith, have now become a dreaded dreary day, the head drooping, feet dragging, dust kicked up with each weary step, as if in a dry desolate desert. Life feels like this when we are at a crossroad in life, and have lost our childlike wonder, where everything is an adventure!

The once trail blazer, now no destination in sight, full of disappointment that needs to be displaced with desire; dreaming of doors opening wide and opportunities in sight. The new dawn, that brings a new day, anticipating all that the Lord is desiring to do, that will draw us into all we desire, and all God desires. The Lord’s heartbeat that causes delight, is to build the people and the church of God’s dreams.

The devil on our back, a dead weight like a dumbbell, debris dug through that needs delivered to the deliverer, who is Jesus. Jesus knows disappointment, and knows every persons doubts and double mindedness, asking for belief and trust in the midst of faithlessness. For he remains faithful.

Jesus, he does not delight in doctrines of demons and finds detestable the deception of falsehood. Jesus does desire freedom for his friends, to debilitate disillusionment by demons. Those negative self thoughts or the supernatural angels of darkness, one or the other. Those things that are churned up, and being dredging up, dirt from the dregs of the past, used to disable his saints. This is the delight of the minions of evil and the desire of a deceiver and destroyer, to fill our lives with dis-ease, or disease, making us sick and disbelieving, and it makes us drop to our knees.

Delighting yourself in the Lord,  welcomes and directs the focus back on the Lord, giving opportunity and hope to resurface and bring us to a place to discus with the Lord our issue, opening dialog to talk, giving an invitation to question why are you downcast oh my soul?

The body may be longing for a change in Direction, and here is a change in direction of thought:

The Butterfly can flutter away on the wind current, it is delicate, remember be gentle or it can be crushed, if trying to capture it by the hand, in good intention. Our lives are just as delicate, blown along with the issues of life, it is finding that balance and not crushing potential, or encouraged in a direction by good intention, but the question needs to be asked, does this match our soul makeup and dreams. It is being sensitive to catch the right wind current and begin to soar. To be blown along by the Holy Spirit!

My sons where arguing over a leaf and the older morning, one was holding onto the leaf and the younger one pulled at the leaf and it ripped and destroyed the delicate leaf, to the disappointment to the older son. The leaf was no longer beautiful. This was one of the very reasons my sons liked the leaf, it was amazing to look at, it was just coming out of the bud stage. The leaf was unfurling from its folded intricacy, much like how a paper fan is folded.

I thought that my older son could have gotten the leaf back if he had let it go, his younger brother just wanted to see what was of interest to him. We have to at times,  simply and with difficulty, we just need to let go of what we are holding onto, to let what we are holding onto free. let it go and if it is for us, God will allow it to come back to us.

Like the butterfly it had to be set free and not held onto, it is created to soar. Like us, when we let go and let God have control, we will enter into our full potential. The hardest part is the patience to wait in those difficult times, when the road is hard and dusty, a desert of barren wasteland, and the destination does not look to be coming into sight. We have to remember that it was the Holy Spirit who led Jesus into the wilderness for the test and it was preparation for the launch of the ministry the Lord had for Jesus to fulfill.


Everything is about change!


The rain water trickling down the mountain, through the lush green grass, meandering, bubbling, becoming a river, and then a glint of a sparkle, as the sun catches the water just right, as the water leaps over the cliff face, and hits the rocks below, creating an effervescent effect. The water droplet joins the turbulent tributary widening as it rushes around the slalom of rocks and tree stumps. The water churning like a chocolate milkshake, taking anything in its wake.

I sit at the edge of the river, taking in the sciens before me.  Pondering as the river makes its way to the sea, where it will be embraced and welcomed, and it will become one with the ocean.

We long for that embrace, that welcome, but many times there is that churning in our stomach, that hollow ache, a nervousness. So many mixed motives, shallow promises and emotions that are an undercurrent in all of our lives. It’s a deep well a persons heart, and at times we do not know what will be drawn from its depths.

The longing for change, then the fear of change; change is one of the needed ingredients of life. We have to stop floundering, being afraid or uncertain, and second guessing ourselves, thus preventing the cycle of change. Allowing the metamorphose to take place that will result in the transformation to happen in our lives. This is an ongoing work, a resurrection, a stripping of the gave cloths. Remember we won’t be alone in the journey, as the Lord is at work. Allowing the born again, new creation process to happen in each of our lives. The Lord begins the work and is faithful to bring it to pass, to the completion, and we hope it is here on earth, but the finished work may be when we see the Lord face to face, the ultimate finale.

We punish people, I punish people, for not having done something for me, and they maybe not even aware, and it is no fault of their own. It is my selfishness surfacing, seeking for input, advice, encouragement, knowledge, and the person’s experience that has been offered but not seen; however, not asked for at times.

At times, I feel we have done people wrong and we need to seek reconciliation and allow forgiveness. We at times have felt threatened by the need for change, being overwelmed, under prepared, and frustrated because of the lack of mentorship and training. We desire help and support, and an arm of comfort put around us, in those times we feel alone and vulnerable. These are the times when we feel pressed in the corner, and see nowhere to run, this pressure squeezes out of us our true heart conditions. The true desires surface, allowing us to see the ugly and it can be a sign that help is needed.

We can get frustrated with unfulfilled longings, unmet promises, looking to our closes connections for support, and encouragement, and at times we shouldn’t places so high an expectations on these people. Then there is the pride of not asking for help due to fear, fear of rejection, becoming defensive and non-flexible. Fearful of the input that highlights or brings to the surface the weaknesses we at times try to hide. Like I, or we think, more highly of ourselves than we should, deceiving ourselves, thinking, wanting, and desiring to be a writer, is my goal. Fill in the space for your goal or aspiration. But will these dreams be encouraged, and not shattered by your friends and loved ones, for we are fragile, even more when entering the change of entering the new and unfamiliar, being vulnerable, and wondering, can I share my heart?

We need to jump in the river and see where the current takes us. Will I trust and surrender to the river and not fight against the current, but navigate around the rocks and go with the flow? We have to stop fighting, and surrender to the Holy Spirit, the Anam Cara, our soul friend, teacher, guide, and comforter. The Guide for your life, and my life, the one who knows the way, let us surrender to the flow of the river, surrender to the freedom the change will give, not to resist, but enjoy the ride, and be carried in the direction the Monarch of the Universe has for us. Trusting that they the Triune one know the way, and this is enough.

The Monarch of the Universe, the Guide, Triune one, and the term Anam Cara, are terms I use in my up and coming book. The Anam Cara and the Celtic Tale. The Story of Tobar’s Transformation.